wow.

This is insanely hard to start writing again. first thing is first. love you gretchen! i'm here for you.

Anyway, i'm so enjoying this semester, unfortunately it has to end next week. the teachers were awesome, and the classes were really interesting. i've definitely learned a lot about who i am and where i fall into place in the world. cheesy but it's true. Learning to be more open-minded has actually made me really happy. well either that or it's because i'm doing awesome this semester. This sounds dumb, but i'm also trying to regain my social skills. i've noticed that ever since i've gone to pcc, i became this anti-social person that didn't want to talk to anyone for fear of not wanting to leave them, but that doesn't mean that i have to shut everyone else out. i noticed this because before i was able to talk to new people i meet easily, but now it's hard to even think of something to say and then there's like a super awkward pause which i absolutely hate... slowly but surely i will become a chatterbox again!

There's definitely one thing that i want to do, and even make it my new year's resolution; start helping others by volunteering or just being there for them besides sitting at home and watching endless hours of tv.

Christmas is coming up and i'm excited but for the first time, i'm dreading the shopping, it's so amazing.

i was told that i was laid back yesterday. is that true? if so that would explain a lot of things.

By the way. i love that i got to hang out with gretchen over the weekend and everytime we hang out, we can always just pick up a conversation after not seeing each other for a year and talk like no time has past!<3